For those of you who do follow me on this site you must be thinking, "She can't make up her mind!"

You just might be right.

Yes, I've redone the site again. And it's in the design that I'm most comfortable with. You could say it is one I'm in harmony with. The focus of the site will still be art, but include much more of the important things to me, like health and other areas of study.

Other things like Feng Shui, Law of Attraction and the nature of this Universe we all live in. You could say I strongly believe in the energy world and how we work with it influences our lives.

Interesting stuff.

But besides that I do have something to update about art! I haven't been making it because my laptop isn't fully functional right now. The monitor screen is all messed up so I have been unable to work on anything. So it's not all laziness on my part!

G'evening,

- Ren

Last post was Oct.12.2009.

Musta lost interest somewhere there.

Actually it’s this blog feature thing. It seemed like such a novel idea at the time, but now all I get is spam. *Thinks of Monty Python skit*

Plus my art drive has pretty much completely diminished into nothingness, I think I might just give this site the re-design that I’ve had in my head……since forever. You could say it was the original, the first idea I had for it [albeit with an art twist]. That said it means I’ll most likely get rid of this…..wordpress layout, go back to my dear sweet html and talk about something that has been a major focus of mine since always, but never spoke much about. Health.

I can’t say I am a health nut, but I am very interested in finding out the best health for my body and my life.

It’s been an adventure already. I’ve learned lots of things about this body that can be pretty inconveniencing, but it probably isn’t so much of an inconvenience because it just means I have to be less lazy. If I care about myself, I will be less lazy. Heck, maybe not even lazy at all!

All 2009 I spent trying that out, experimenting on myself to find out how I react. I had up and downs with getting my health in line. Stress derailing me most of the time [also the various holidays just do not help]. I am probably in the same condition as I was this time last year when I sought out to learn the truth. I know a lot more. I guess the biggest factor I gotta do is do.

2010 I had no intention of making any resolutions. My only resolve is to change my life for the better and keep it that way. I want to do what I did in 2009, doing it better. Everyday is an opportunity and those days are filled with yes and no choices. When met up with a situation one has to know which direction they want to go. Then you ask if the yes or no answer takes you closer to it.

For myself it’d be something like, “Will drinking this cup of coffee aid me in my healing?” No. It might make me feel better, or comfort me, but in the end it actually takes more away then it gives. So the answer is no.

Lucky for me I’ve pretty much given up drinking coffee. XD

Yay tea! Speaking of which………..

Until next time. And who knows, I might find time to do to this place as I’ve intended. Make it into something that is who I am.

- Ren

Still doing what I was in my last post. I’m not creating anything new. Now I don’t even think about doing anything art. I don’t know if I’d call it an art rut, I simply have no inspiration to create. Anything fan related and even my own “Reign” project just doesn’t do it for me anymore. Hah, I haven’t even tried sketching so I couldn’t tell you how my skill is. Probably still awesome lol.

I will admit my focus has been on other areas of my life. The energy is being directed there as opposed to my artistic endeavours. Areas involving spiritual development and personal growth/personality growth. It takes a lot of energy out of me. Like recently I read a book by Sasha Xarrian, Outrageous Mastery. It was a fascinating story, and has gotten me back on the positive mental level. I was getting a little distraught and it was exactly what I needed at the time. I was hoping it might be the missing piece I have been searching for that gives me full control of myself and my life, but I think I still have fears I need to heal. But this book has giving me a key as to what those lingering oppressive fears may be.

For example.

The book is filled with many concepts and the major concept that jumped out at me was how your biggest fear is the ones that will come true. When I read that I had to think long and hard just what my biggest fear was. Honestly it didn’t come to me very quickly, but I have pretty much settled that my biggest fear in life is being alone/loneliness. And you know what I have also found? That my life is filled mostly with being alone and loneliness. I am actually living my own worst fear on a day-to-day basis.

And as I understand the workings of LoA, that fear reason also becomes an explanation for the events that have occurred in my life. The reason as to why certain things became as they are now. That fear attracted it all into my life to create more of that fear.

I am in a better position from reading that book. Now I know my fear, I know I have been living with it and I can survive it. Unfortunately that hasn’t eliminated it from my life. I am on the search for a way to completely release that fear so I can start living life with others.

I’m gonna go read that book again.

G’day,

- Ren

Haven’t made any arts lately. Been so busy with life I just haven’t felt like sitting down and drawing/painting anything. I’m actually at a point where I marvel at the fact that I am/was an artist. Hahaha, if I ever get my muse again it’s gonna be rusty.

But life is good. I like…..maybe even love [only a bit] my job. It’s never dull, days go by quickly [for the most part] and some days I look forward to it. My days at home kind of pale in comparison to it now. At home I’ve got almost nothing to do.

No, that’s not entirely true. I did get my new N64 and Majora’s Mask. However that game is not as enjoyable as I hoped [so far]. I’m stuck at a part, and the whole time aspect is such a pain. It’s cool, creative, but still, it’s irrigating me! Agriculturally speaking of course. lol

I don’t want to cheat, I don’t like to cheat and read walk throughs, but I just might have to if I don’t get somewhere with that game soon. Like tonight. Maybe Sept will be a good month to me art wise. Maybe I’ll put something up. Heck, I have tons of sketches lying around. Perhaps I oughta start adding that kind of stuff. Hahaha that reminds me, I do have an area of my site that needs updating. Urk.

Well, this post was mostly to state I am indeed alive. I am well. Hope everyone is doing good. Good luck to all the students heading into a new school year!

G’day,

- Ren

I need to eat something. The refrigerator is literally bare. I could eat some ketchup…….no, mustard! YEAH.

-_-

Tonight I am buying some food.

I made it last night. :D

Was a sketch I had laying around for a long while. In boredom I decided to ink it. I might colour it at a later time.

It’s actually a joke piece. I don’t like the way most female characters are portrayed in popular comics. They’re just so fake.

This is the Captain under-going that same “Sexification”.

….

I want food.

G’day,

- Ren

I am happy to share with you my new and improved journal! Actually it is a blog, but I don’t like that word. Makes me think of clogs, which I also don’t like. Ahahaha.

Sooooo, to avoid all that I’m just gonna call it my journal. The best part, now you can reply to my……..rants? Rambles? Musings? Well whatever pet name you have for it, you can finally reply to it. This will be the area where I’ll be discussing things. From my art to my spiritual endeavours. That way you are even more up-to-date about what’s been added, changed or worked on. Fun fun!

A Word about Word More like Wordpress. When I signed up with this particular webhost, I got this Wordpress thing along with it. I wasn’t sure what it was, but I later figured out it had something to do with blogging. On numerous attempts I tried to skin it, but it was really frustrating and I never got the hang of it. I didn’t really wanna use it if I couldn’t customize it.

But because of feelings I’ve been developing of deviantART, I was inspired to try it again, and this time I was able to fashion a Wordpress style with my site style. It took me a couple days, but it should work now!


What’s in store for me now in the future? Food! Ahahaha. I think I have to mention food at least once in each post. With that I am going to go get some food. You guys take it easy too. ^_^

G’day,

- Ren

It has been done.

If you would like to see my journal/blog please visit it here >>> Ren's Journal

I've also added a journal link up with the rest of the links.

The journal will be where I will post the writing I normally do here. You know the complaining and all that. lol. Nawwww. Hahahahaha ah that sounds bad.

This space will be used for art updates. Like when I add something new to the site or anything to do with art specifically. Unless it's an art rant, then that's going into the journal.

I've not much else to say other then I hope to hear from you who have been watching me all this time. May this be a step up for this site.

G'evening,

- Ren